Diary of an Older Fatman 1

 May 18th 2025

Diary of an Older Fatman 1

      Current mood:Nervous

      Day 1

      Weight 326.6

      Measurements: Chest - NA, Gut - NA, Waist - NA, R&L Arms - NA, R&L Thigh - NA

It has been a very long time since I have posted here. I am starting this weight loss journey again and I am afraid that I will fail, just like all the other times I tried to jump start my weight loss and failed. I do not feel like my GF is very supportive of my weight loss goals. She says she is but I do not feel that from her. I try to talk to her about it and I just get this feeling from her that doesn't make me feel good. I know when I am excited about something I can be super gung ho about it maybe to a fault and I know she feels like I am judging her but I keep telling her I could care less what she is doing. Our journeys are different and that is okay. I know though that I cannot count on her to help me get through this, this is just a me thing, I have to be strong enough to push through this. Dont get me wrong my GF is great, but just in this aspect she falls short. We all fall short at times and that is okay. I am strong enough to do this I know what it takes to be successful. I just have to incorporate those things into my life. 

I have started another weight loss challenge with my friend. He won the last one seeing as how i gained 10 pounds during it. Who the hell gains weight during a weight loss challenge? This guy right here gains weight during a weight loss challenge. FML. We decided to double down instead. So if I lose, I owe him 200 dollars. IDK if I can lose this weight anymore. He is on meds that are helping him with weight loss Aderall mainly. I have to raw dawg this shit haha. I have to deal with the stress from my GF, kids and work and still maintain. Honestly I think he is just amusing me with a chance to win this money back but mainly he is just hoping I'll get serious and lose the weight. 

I am trying to go this next month without spending money on eating out. We'll see how that goes. I need a win here. I'll write back more tomorrow if I can. I also need to post my measurements. 

Sorry reading this blog I already sound defeated haha sucks. But this is the place that I am at and it is up to me to get myself out of this hole.